Hello Project,
for going to write this message it took me five months. I discovered gay project for two years and a half, I open it whenever I can, I read the things I feel very close, and in particular my very sure your posts on masturbation were really enlightening for me. I'm almost 22 years are a student who has always tried to look for and commitment to their studies and from that point of view I am satisfied, but it is not the study that you want to talk. I am very embarrassed to write about these things but I want to move forward. For me the discovery of sexuality has come very late in practice after the sixteen perhaps even to seventeen years. Up almost 17 years I was very little, they gave me less and less years than I had. In classic I first took for a boy of the fourth school, in practice I did not have sexual feelings and curiosity even in that sense, I did not think its almost the issue. Then in the summer between the second and third tracks (I went to school a year earlier) have radically changed the physical level. When I came in third in the classic does not even recognize me, I had grown in height but I was also very well made, in fact I said I was just a pretty boy, I grew a beard rasavo very regular every day and so far, so good, but there were many other things, Specifically, I began to feel very strong sexual feelings, went rather frequently in erection without thinking about anything and it embarrassed me a lot. At that time, after a few years ago, I had no realistic idea of \u200b\u200bsexuality and certainly not had any experience of masturbation, it seems absurd but it is. Reading the post from gay project I realized that for an eighteen year old does not know firsthand what it is that masturbation is a very uncommon thing, but to me it happened exactly that. Even after my physical, before the final year of high school, the idea of \u200b\u200bmasturbation is not even touched me. They came nocturnal emissions but ended its all there. I tried to go straight to porn sites, but the thing I was almost completely indifferent, to go on a gay website I even went to the hall of the brain. I was totally isolated, I had absolutely no one with whom to talk about these things and I was still a shyness that this would not have done under any circumstances. In the third I had become a classic guy interesting for my classmates, but to me they were not just any effect, among other things was the only boy in class, but this thing has affected me a lot. In practice I did not have a sexuality, I studied, the girls did not interest me and the boys did not know anything, I had an idea of \u200b\u200bthe gay completely absurd, I thought they were pathological cases decided with sex, among other things, I did not understand even that could be attractive. Started the third classic my life has changed so radically, I had a new male partner, Luca (do not call it that), a handsome boy that I liked right away, not sexually, why not think about these things, but I was sympathetic, often joked to the bench and we started together, we slowly entered the familiar, was to study by myself and I went to his house. I loved him. We studied together and we never talked about sex, many other things but never about sex. He had a lot of attention to me, was cautious, almost hesitant in my comparisons, smiled often, was determined to make me understand that he was there. In practice, it was in love with me. According to him, I should probably figure it out but I did not understand anything, the idea that a guy like Luke, I'm not in any way identified as gay, you could fall in love with me not even touched me and he had the courage to speak out . One day you studied together, I realized that Luke was at least partially erect and I noticed that he was embarrassed by this fact, I told him: "No problem! It happens, "but what happened after I did not expect it at all, he asks:" But you understand why? "The answer:" No. "It took more than a minute to go, then he said: "Why are you ..." I did not understand what he meant and I thought that was telling me that I was erect but even I was not so and I answered. "No, not true!" He took it for a refusal against him and began to feel visibly uncomfortable. I told him: "Sorry, I did not understand, but what you meant?" And he replied: "I love you." At that time I have made a surprised face, then I told him: "Wait, let me understand, you're in love with you me? "From there we talked a lot. I was just at ease, we also talked about sex, I tried to tell him that you really liked him but did not feel for him what he felt, that I had never experienced sexual involvement for him. He wanted to know if I was straight or gay, and I said that in practice for me sex was an unknown planet, there volva believe, was just puzzled, after that day has begun a period of ice between us, no longer come to my house neither wanted to go to him. I tried to explain to him a couple of times but the answer was clear, he did not believe the things I told him frankly and even then I understood the meaning of what he said to me, I missed his presence, but not related to sex. It was then that I started looking for something who spoke of gay people to try to understand what Luke could feel for me but I was looking for a serious matter because if Luke made me a speech as that was not stupid. So I came to gay project. I found things I had not found anywhere else, anything dealing with sexuality in explicit terms but serious things. I read a lot about masturbation in particular, so, to try to get an idea and then I tried to practice thinking about Luke and it worked. I have not tried any of the impressions of dirty or disgusting that I had imagined, in practice I had saved a lot of preconceptions and this Project, thanks to you. Well now I had a clear idea of Luke and what he could to try to put together love and sex did not seem at all a small thing. The next day I took Luke by overcoming its waste, and I said: "I masturbated for the first time in my life last night thinking about you." He still wanted to leave everything to lose but I did realize that I was now able to understand what was going through and that he "probably" I fell in love with him but I need to go step by step. He made me sign to shut up and that we would talk later. We met in the afternoon and told me that they believed what I said. Well the rest you can imagine it, now we've been together two years and would not trade my life with no the world. We have many problems because we have to live in hiding our history. We are doing many projects for the future and I hope can be realized. This mail is a way to say thank you because now I feel if I made it to you.
Hello Project and continues. Publish the news, if you want.
for going to write this message it took me five months. I discovered gay project for two years and a half, I open it whenever I can, I read the things I feel very close, and in particular my very sure your posts on masturbation were really enlightening for me. I'm almost 22 years are a student who has always tried to look for and commitment to their studies and from that point of view I am satisfied, but it is not the study that you want to talk. I am very embarrassed to write about these things but I want to move forward. For me the discovery of sexuality has come very late in practice after the sixteen perhaps even to seventeen years. Up almost 17 years I was very little, they gave me less and less years than I had. In classic I first took for a boy of the fourth school, in practice I did not have sexual feelings and curiosity even in that sense, I did not think its almost the issue. Then in the summer between the second and third tracks (I went to school a year earlier) have radically changed the physical level. When I came in third in the classic does not even recognize me, I had grown in height but I was also very well made, in fact I said I was just a pretty boy, I grew a beard rasavo very regular every day and so far, so good, but there were many other things, Specifically, I began to feel very strong sexual feelings, went rather frequently in erection without thinking about anything and it embarrassed me a lot. At that time, after a few years ago, I had no realistic idea of \u200b\u200bsexuality and certainly not had any experience of masturbation, it seems absurd but it is. Reading the post from gay project I realized that for an eighteen year old does not know firsthand what it is that masturbation is a very uncommon thing, but to me it happened exactly that. Even after my physical, before the final year of high school, the idea of \u200b\u200bmasturbation is not even touched me. They came nocturnal emissions but ended its all there. I tried to go straight to porn sites, but the thing I was almost completely indifferent, to go on a gay website I even went to the hall of the brain. I was totally isolated, I had absolutely no one with whom to talk about these things and I was still a shyness that this would not have done under any circumstances. In the third I had become a classic guy interesting for my classmates, but to me they were not just any effect, among other things was the only boy in class, but this thing has affected me a lot. In practice I did not have a sexuality, I studied, the girls did not interest me and the boys did not know anything, I had an idea of \u200b\u200bthe gay completely absurd, I thought they were pathological cases decided with sex, among other things, I did not understand even that could be attractive. Started the third classic my life has changed so radically, I had a new male partner, Luca (do not call it that), a handsome boy that I liked right away, not sexually, why not think about these things, but I was sympathetic, often joked to the bench and we started together, we slowly entered the familiar, was to study by myself and I went to his house. I loved him. We studied together and we never talked about sex, many other things but never about sex. He had a lot of attention to me, was cautious, almost hesitant in my comparisons, smiled often, was determined to make me understand that he was there. In practice, it was in love with me. According to him, I should probably figure it out but I did not understand anything, the idea that a guy like Luke, I'm not in any way identified as gay, you could fall in love with me not even touched me and he had the courage to speak out . One day you studied together, I realized that Luke was at least partially erect and I noticed that he was embarrassed by this fact, I told him: "No problem! It happens, "but what happened after I did not expect it at all, he asks:" But you understand why? "The answer:" No. "It took more than a minute to go, then he said: "Why are you ..." I did not understand what he meant and I thought that was telling me that I was erect but even I was not so and I answered. "No, not true!" He took it for a refusal against him and began to feel visibly uncomfortable. I told him: "Sorry, I did not understand, but what you meant?" And he replied: "I love you." At that time I have made a surprised face, then I told him: "Wait, let me understand, you're in love with you me? "From there we talked a lot. I was just at ease, we also talked about sex, I tried to tell him that you really liked him but did not feel for him what he felt, that I had never experienced sexual involvement for him. He wanted to know if I was straight or gay, and I said that in practice for me sex was an unknown planet, there volva believe, was just puzzled, after that day has begun a period of ice between us, no longer come to my house neither wanted to go to him. I tried to explain to him a couple of times but the answer was clear, he did not believe the things I told him frankly and even then I understood the meaning of what he said to me, I missed his presence, but not related to sex. It was then that I started looking for something who spoke of gay people to try to understand what Luke could feel for me but I was looking for a serious matter because if Luke made me a speech as that was not stupid. So I came to gay project. I found things I had not found anywhere else, anything dealing with sexuality in explicit terms but serious things. I read a lot about masturbation in particular, so, to try to get an idea and then I tried to practice thinking about Luke and it worked. I have not tried any of the impressions of dirty or disgusting that I had imagined, in practice I had saved a lot of preconceptions and this Project, thanks to you. Well now I had a clear idea of Luke and what he could to try to put together love and sex did not seem at all a small thing. The next day I took Luke by overcoming its waste, and I said: "I masturbated for the first time in my life last night thinking about you." He still wanted to leave everything to lose but I did realize that I was now able to understand what was going through and that he "probably" I fell in love with him but I need to go step by step. He made me sign to shut up and that we would talk later. We met in the afternoon and told me that they believed what I said. Well the rest you can imagine it, now we've been together two years and would not trade my life with no the world. We have many problems because we have to live in hiding our history. We are doing many projects for the future and I hope can be realized. This mail is a way to say thank you because now I feel if I made it to you.
Hello Project and continues. Publish the news, if you want.
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